Can you remember a time when you sensed Gods presence and you were absolutely sure it was Him? Perhaps it was when you first believed, or maybe it happened just yesterday. As for me, yesterday I did have an overwhelming sense of His presence, reassurance and clarity. The moment came and went, and I was just completely awestruck to the point where it left me in tears. It was a sudden glory. A God moment - an intimate moment with my Creator, the lover of my soul. Last night at night of worship at the downtown Phoenix Hillsong campus, God revealed himself to me in such a way I still can't exactly put into words. While it was happening, I was just in complete shock and didn't know how or what to think other than process how God lined up all the pieces so perfectly and so ordinarily in my head. Yesterday morning I was in flagstaff and Nicole and I had decided to go into the Barnes and Noble by NAU. Without knowing what time they opened, we showed up at the doors one minute before open. I was walking around looking at all the different books they had when I came across one that for some reason just stuck out to me. I picked it up and it was a picture book about the story of Moses. I felt compelled to read through it. In this bible story, Moses was born and the Hebrews were slaves in Egypt. The Pharaoh was afraid of them because he thought they might take over his country. He ordered that all Hebrew baby boys be killed at birth so that they would not grow up and fight against him. Moses' mother could not hide him any longer so she sent him off in a basket on the Nile river. He was found by the Pharaohs daughter who took him in and raised him herself. At the end of the book, I had thought to myself, "I wonder why she called him Moses." And I had a feeling that somehow, somewhere the story would apply to me. Weird though. How could the story of Moses apply to me, right? So last night when the first speaker gave his sermon, it was about trust. I remember him specifically saying, "We can't see what our purpose will be in our 9-5 job." This is when it started happening. I could feel God speaking this directly to me. My current situation with the Air Force is involving a whole lot of trust and faith in God.. I didn't qualify for the jobs I wanted and I won't have a say in the end of what job will open up for me, so I have to trust that God will give me the job that HE wants me to have and lead me to the places where HE wants me to be. So yeah it can make sense as to why I've been so worried and filled with fear for I can only see a tiny puzzle piece; however, God can see the entire puzzle pieced together. Just when I thought it was over and I still had this discomforting feeling inside of me, the next speaker came on the stage. Right from the start, after he announced his message was about the story of Moses, is when everything started to really hit me. Just complete shock and awe. He talked about everything I had read that morning and how Moses' faith was greater than his fears, how he had to trust God through his struggles and failures, etc. Not only that, but he talked about his name. Moses' was saved out of the Nile river, and his name literally means "water" and "deliverance." God has been involved since the beginning. I felt God speak to me, "Faith. I gave you your name. Have Faith in me." He put the passions in Moses from the beginning just like he put my passions in me from the beginning. And it's only through him, that I, or any of us, can do what we want to do. We need him to intervene with our circumstances. Ultimately, it's been so hard for me to comprehend that I'm sworn in and officially going to ship off soon. But because God is involved, everything is going to change according to his purposes and the calling he has on my life. Trusting can be hard, but it's easy to trust when you know God holds the desires of your heart and knows what's best for you. I've finally come to a peace and bigger understanding of his plans for me; I'm so thankful. 🌻
